Friday, December 31, 2010
I wish you all the best in this upcoming year, I urge you all to go and try something you have always wanted to do or to go try something new and exciting that you thought you would never do in a million years. Have fun, be safe, Dance in the rain, climb a mountain, go on that trip that you have always wanted to go on, basically live your life the way you want to, don't let anyone tell you no.
If you are going out to a party to ring in the New Year, if you drink don't drive, have fun and I will see you all in 2011!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Richard is playing a video game where he is flying a plane and having to do missions and I have noticed out of the corner of my eye that he moves his body to help with his control of the plane, like moving is going to help it at all. He was trying to get his plane to pull up so it wouldn't crash into the water and he started leaning back in the chair. I know for a fact that he isn't the only video game player that does this, cause I do it and I have even seen my brother do it. It just amuses me that we get so into our games that we think it's going to help, but it never does, it just makes us look goofy.
I can't watch him play the game he is playing because I start getting sick to my stomach, I have motion sickness and certain things can trigger it, like a video game that moves around to fast because the camera is spinning or something, I just start getting dizzy and feel like I want to toss my cookies. The weird thing is, if I am playing a game where I have control over the camera angle and make it spin, I wont get sick but if I watch other people I will. An example of this is a Wii game called Boom Blox, I can controll the camera really well and not get sick but if we are playing the game with mom I turn green because she can't control the camera at all and all it does is spin the game around really fast. I mean it even makes Richard sick. I can thank my dad for the motion sickness, transparently he had it really bad too, he had to either be driving or in the front seat of the car or he would get sick. This is one thing I wish he wouldn't have passed onto me. Oh well.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
I am yawning a lot so off to slumber I go.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Richard and I had some good adventures this year as well, we went gold panning with a friend then hung out with him at his camp site with a fire going and just chatting, we went up to Fairbanks and back to town in 1 day, which was a long trip but we had fun. Went out to Potters Marsh a couple of times, Made it out to Homer for a day with mom for something to do. Then of course there were a couple of trips out to the valley to visit his folks, Oh and his Aunt Kendy came up in March so we got to hang with her for a bit. So that was fun and exciting and lots of pictures were taken and posted on Facebook. Oh I also mended a friendship earlier this year as well.
The one big negative thing that happened this year was that Richard lost his job in October, he still hasn't been able to get another one yet. He has been out of work for over 2 months now, on the bright side its been great having him home, on the not so bright side, we do nothing cause we can't afford to do anything. We are getting along great with each other and haven't had a fight so that's a plus, our main problem is lack of things to do. I know that when the time is right, and the right job comes along it will all fall into place and things will go back to normal, for now we are just holding our heads above the water and praying that a big wave doesn't come and drown us. I have managed to stay pretty dang healthy and haven't yet had to go to the doctor so that is a big plus, Richard re-injured his back helping his dad but it wasn't to bad and the bill for going to the chiro was manageable and paid off .
Here's hoping that next year is as good as the good parts of this year were and no where near as bad as the bad parts of this year were. Or heck an even better year all around then this year would be cool too.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Because I know of my cats fondness for human food I will call him over to me to see if he wants to try what ever I am eating, that is if he is around when I'm eating it. Now it doesn't matter where he is or what he is doing but if either Richard and I open a can of tuna Kramer is in the kitchen in 5 seconds begging for some, we only ever give him just the smallest itty bitty amount and that's only every great once in awhile. Today I was eating some sushi and Kramer was around so I called to him and he was over to me in 3 seconds flat. I held the sushi down to where he could smell it and he wanted nothing to do with it. The cat that loves tuna wanted nothing to do with the sushi. He is a very strange cat. OH and he loves, loves, loves ice cream.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
It's Christmas cookie time at moms house again. Every year we get together with a friend of mine and make way to many cookies. In the picture there is 2 different kinds of peanut butter blossoms, one with cherry kisses and one with dark chocolate ones, we also made ones with Carmel and mint truffle as well. there is also stacked up in this picture the sugar cookies from Pillsbury with Christmas trees, snowmen and reindeer on them. We also made M&M cookies, chocolate chip cookies, some kind of cookie that used cake mix, (I didn't like those ones) and Rice Krispie treats. Those rice krispie treats aren't the regular ones either, my mom got the recipe from her boss and they are soooo much better than the regular ones. I can't eat regular ones anymore cause they just don't taste right to me anymore. We started making cookies at 11am and were done by 4pm leaving moms house smelling like cookies.
There was a little drama before we could start making the cookies though, moms truck was to be in the shop this morning for an oil change but she also had a meeting at work to go to so last night we let her take our truck home after dropping hers off at the shop. When she got up this morning the dang truck wouldn't start, she ended up having to call a friend of hers to take her to work for the meeting. Once the meeting was done, she borrowed her bosses car to come get Richard to go get her truck then head back to the hospital to give her boss back her car. Then they came and picked me and my friend up and we all went to moms house, ML and I to start with the cookies and mom and Richard to see if they could get our truck started and over to the shop to be fixed. They were able to jump our truck and got it the shop just fine. It had been acting like it wasn't wanting to start for us when we would go start it up to go somewhere but would always start up, we figured it was because it was cold or the battery was going out and we needed a new one. Well it was in fact the battery not wanting to hold a charge anymore, so we now have a new battery in the truck. So all and all a busy day for us.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
The apartment is pretty much done being decorated for Christmas and it looks great, I just have to string up the lighted garland but need Richards help for that. I have gotten my Christmas cards done, I just need to go put them in the mail so they can be sent out to everyone. Plus next Friday I get to go to moms house with my friend ML and bake Christmas cookies. I love spending the day making cookies just the three of us, its so much fun and I missed doing it last year.
Friday, November 26, 2010
It's looking like the second weekend of December will be the day we do Christmas cookies at my moms house this year, we didn't do them last year because Richard and I were out of town. SO that will be a lot of fun. I have always enjoyed making Christmas cookies with my mom. Then a few years ago a friend of mine joined my mom and I and its become a tradition that the three of us get together for a day and bake cookies.
After raining the first half of the week yesterday it snowed a lot, I mean prob a good 6-12 inches depending where you were in town. It was so pretty out. Richard and I went to mom's house for Thanksgiving and his parents were there too, always fun hanging with the whole family.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Last Sunday Richard and I got together with my friend Kaori and her little boy, we had a blast talking with her and watching her son play. We met up at Boarders and hung out there for a couple of hours. I love being able to see her when she comes up here to visit and work for her mom.
Tomorrow we find out if mom won the Nurse of the Year award, that she was nominated for. I hope she wins cause that would be so totally cool! But as I told her, she should feel honored just to be nominated for it. She says she has a snow balls chance in hell of winning but its still cool I think.
Saturday mom and I are going to the annual Christmas arts and crafts emporium at the Dena'ina Center, we go every year just mostly as something to do but we have fun looking at all the stuff and seeing what is new from last year.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
A friend of ours came over to hang out for a couple of hours today, and then tomorrow we get to go see a friend of mine that is up from Texas to visit, so it will be fun to hang out with her. But other than that, nothing to do. If you guys have any suggestions please feel free to share them with me. I am even going to start working on puzzles so hopefully that helps a little bit as well. I might end up going mad from boredom, we will have to wait and see about that though.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
It's been snowing on and off the last couple of days, sadly not a lot accumulates there isn't even near a foot of snow on the ground yet. But I love to watch the snow fall, so pretty! Only part of winter I don't like is how slick it gets outside. Mom and I went to a bazaar on Saturday and while walking outside to get to it I fell for the first time this winter, I hurt my pride and my hip, its still a little sore but not to bad anymore.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
It's amazing to me how watching a movie can bring you back to what you were doing or where you were when you watched it. I was instantly a little girl sitting on the floor in the living room watching the movie with my mom, it wasn't the first time I had seen the movie but it was a movie we watched a lot when I was younger. I remember her saying that this one part of the movie where there is a bee in the car and they all get out and run away that the oldest boy acted just the way my brother would have in running in the total opposite direction of everyone else. It was fun to watch it again. I hope that one of these days that movie will be released on DVD and when and if it does, I will deff buy it for our collection.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
I sadly have come down with my first illness of the winter, I have a sinus infection, oh the joys of pressure in your head. This one isn't as bad as I have had in the past, but it still isn't fun to have, I feel like someone is banging a hammer on my head. Hopefully my meds will knock this one out and I will be back to normal shortly.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Richard and I got our flu shots on Thursday, so we are now ready for winter. When I got the shot my arm didn't hurt at all but its been two days now and my upper arm hasn't stopped hurting, it's not as bad as when you get a tetanus shot but still it's annoying and I want it to go away. Oh well this is the price I must pay so I don't get the flu and get sick so I will pay it. Cause god knows I can't afford getting sick at the moment.
In other fun news, mom's water heater is on its last legs, it has a leak in it, which is what has been causing the pilot light to keep going out. Dad said he would replace it Monday for her, so Richard and I might be over there Monday to help with that, not sure though. Cause we all know how reliable this man is when it comes to getting stuff done for family.
Thanksgiving is fastly approaching which means my favorite holiday is just around the corner, I am already planning in my head how to decorate the apartment for Christmas. I have a few good ideas so it will be fun to see how they turn out. Now I just have to wait till its time to decorate so a few more weeks.
Monday, October 18, 2010
I have had two meetings with the new lady that's going to be helping me look for a job. I really like her a lot! Richard likes her as well, we all seem to get a long great and she doesn't mind at all if Richard is back in the meetings with us. I am actually looking forward to working with her and looking for jobs. My next meeting with her is on Wednesday and I am for once looking forward to going.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Thursday was Richards birthday, we celebrated by going food shopping, then going out to dinner at Outback with my mom and brother. We had a good time and the food was great. We started celebrating his birthday a few days earlier by going to the two Purple with a Purpose Ace's Hockey games on Tuesday and Wednesday. The Aces lost but we still had a fun time. Richard also used his last 2 vacation days for Thursday and Friday so he has a 4 day weekend, which has been nice so far.
That's pretty much what I have been up to the last couple of days. The weather is getting colder and we are starting to guess when the first snow fall is going to be, Richard and I both agree that it's prob not going to happen till November, but we shall wait and see.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
I survived my weekly meeting with She who must not be named. I get a two week vacation from her cause she will be out of town. YAY! that means I don't have to worry about finding a place to park downtown near her office and at a parking meter. Sweet relief. Only had one problem with her in this last meeting, she tried kicking Richard out of the meeting. Saying it was awkward and that the meeting was just between me and her, I want him in there with me and that is my right. I mean why now after him sitting in on the other meetings does she try to kick him out? He is a big part of me being able to have a job, he has the right to have input into it because he is the one that is going to be driving me to and from work, he knows me better than she knows me, I want his opinion in the matter. It's only fair.
Other than that, I'm trying to get back into a routine again, this last week has been very hectic and stressful, poor Richard has a sinus infection so he isn't feeling very well. He is on meds though so he will be feeling better shortly. I have a meeting at DVR today, which I'm not really looking forward to cause I know why we are having this meeting, its because of what she said to my councelor when she talked to her earlier this month. I thought it was rather odd to have two meetings with her in a month cause I usually only ever have one meeting at DVR a month.
Monday, September 20, 2010
I have survived another week of she who must not be named and am getting ready to do another battle with her on Wednesday. I really don't know how much more I can take of her, poor Richard is at the end of his rope with her already. That's saying a lot cause he is a very patient person. Then on the 30th I have an appointment at DVR which has me a little worried only because I had a meeting there at the begining of the month and usually only have one meeting a month or every couple of months with them. I am wondering if She called them and complained about me or something. I might just bring up schooling and see what they think because well there just aint any jobs up here for me.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
There have been days, where I wish I could of called my friend up and say hey if you aren't busy you want to come over and hang out for a few hours? Or even just chatting on the phone with her. I know I ranted and raved about her when I ended the friendship but really it was petty stuff that I should of just found a way to talk to her about. She indeed was a great friend to me when I needed her the most and even though there have been gaps of us not talking for one reason or another we always found a way to connect again. I hope my stupidity and stubbornness didn't ruin it.
I have grown up a lot this last year, I didn't know I needed too but looking back I was just as childish as she was in that conversation. I just hope she forgives me.
I don't mean for this to sound mean, I'm just stating how I feel. I hope we can work something out.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
The ringworm that has plagued my foot is finally gone, I'm glad to be rid of it. It really didn't bug me but was just a pain to take care of. I have a really hard time remembering to take meds or put ointment on, I just plain forget to do it. I'm trying to get better about remembering these kinds of things and I have made some progress.
The job thing is going slow, I have applied for one job. Or well She who must not be named applied for a job for me. I don't have to deal with her till next week and am already starting to dread it. I don't think I will be getting a job any time soon. She told me about some of her brain storming ideas and she has no clue who I am or what I would like to do. This is an on going battle that I don't know how much longer I can last in. Never mind the fact that parking to see her is a big pain in the butt. It's way to expensive to pay for parking and the parking meeter isn't any better. I am going to talk to the lady at DVR about this to see what she thinks about the parking issue, cause we just can't afford to do this every week.
I think the leak in the bathroom has been solved. Maintenance hasn't been back yet and it's been over a week since they were last here. I hope they come and finish up the bathroom so I can stop worrying if they are going to show up during the day or not. In other apartment news, our rent is going up yet again. UGH! It went up last year in June and now it's going up again. Pretty soon Richard and I won't be able to live here if it keeps going up.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
We went down to the Homer Spit and got out and walked down to the ocean to take some pictures. Richard Went and picked up a few rocks to skip and I managed to get this picture of him, I think its a pretty cool action shot of him.
On Saturday Richard and I are going to the Alaska State Fair, I can't wait to go and get my Husky burger and see all the stuff there. We will prob be there all day just wandering and enjoying the sites and sounds of the fair.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
I jut got this picture in an email from my friend Larry who came up here with his mom in July from California to visit. I became friends with him and his mom through my friend Diane as they were her brother and mom. Larry took care of Diane once she got sick. I consider both him and his mom family and love and miss them a ton so its always nice to see them. I last saw them in December when I went down to Sacramento and they flew up there from Long Beach for the day to see me and meet Richard.
We had breakfast at Snow City Cafe, we had to wait over an hour for a table because the place is so popular but the food was well worth the wait and it gave us more time to chat and catch up. That is where this picture is taken. On the left side of the picture is Richard and I and on the right side of the picture its Larry, Mary Rita (another friend of Diane's that we know) and Judy, Larry and Diane's mom.
So in other news, the mystery spot on my foot isn't a mystery any more. The doctor thinks its ringworm and gave me some ointment to put on it for the next 6 weeks, oh joy! I also need to keep an eye on Kramer and make sure that he doesn't get it from me. So far so good on that front.
Friday, August 13, 2010
I took this picture on Monday night, I happened to look down at my foot and saw that I had this splotch/ circle thing on my foot. I got a little freaked out and called mom, she stopped by on Tuesday before work to look at it (god I love having a nurse for a mom) touched it told me she didn't know what it was and to keep an eye on it and if it got any bigger to go to the doctor. Well it's now friday, it hasn't gotten any bigger and has faded out but you can still see it. It's warm to the touch, or well I think it is, like it was on Tuesday and it hurts now. Not like a rash kinda hurt but like the bone is aching. This all started after I took a shower this morning, my foot did not like the water hitting it at all and has been aching all day.
I don't know what caused it either, I didn't drop anything on it, didn't smack in on anything, in fact the only thing I did this last weekend was go out to the valley on Saturday and fell but that was on my right side, I didn't land on the top of my foot, I didn't even land on that foot at all. I'm going to tell mom about this ache and see what she says, I might just have to go to the doctor after all and see what the heck this thing is.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Wednesday rolls around and They don't show up till like 4pm are here just long enough to finish fixing the faucet and tell us they will be back on Thursday for the leak.
They show up on Thursday, cut the hole even bigger(see picture above) to try and find the leak. No luck, its not coming from anything down here in our apartment so they have to go looking for the leak in the two apartments above us that share the same wall as we do. They cover the now expanded hole and say they will be back. So today is the 4th day of this hole in the ceiling and this horrid smell of stagnant water in the bathroom that comes out into the apartment so we have to have a candle lit just so we can't smell it in the living room. They still haven't shown up but they usually show up around 2pm here so I have a few hours to wait, hopefully they can get this fixed before the weekend. They don't work on the weekends and I really don't want to have this hole in the ceiling all weekend either.
Monday, August 2, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
It rained all weekend here, I'm not complaining cause I love the rain and it just means that it's almost August and almost time for the Alaska State Fair. Gosh I love going to the fair, I just have such a great time there. It's the same every year, a few things change but other than that it's been the same as long as a can remember. It's the last big thing to do before the snow flies.
I finally got my hearing back in my left ear, it's not 100% back but I would say about 95% back. This happened yesterday I realized it only when a friend sent me a text message and I thought that the ringer on the phone sounded loud. It took me a bit but I got used to things being "loud" again. I am just glad that I can finally hear better I was getting annoyed with having to make sure people were on my right side so I could hear them.
In other news I am now reading Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. So I am making my way through the books. After I finish the Potter books I am going back to reading ones I haven't read cause I have a few more new ones coming out that I need to catch up on.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
In other good news, We will have our phone line tomorrow and then internet by Tuesday. So I only have a couple more days of fighting with clearwire then it's so long crappy internet hello great internet.
Shortly after moving to where we are now we had problem and lost the net, we called up clearwire and they said our tower that we have in the apartment wasn't working and they would send us a new one. Ok no problems there, new one came, we sent the broke one back all was good. till about April of this year. We started having issues with the internet not working, it would work and call up pages then all of the sudden we were getting booted off of the net and then it would work fine again. I called up and asked what was up and they said that they were having problems and it should be fixed shortly. Well they fixed their problems but we were still having problems of our own with it. We were lucky if it worked and prayed that it would last long enough to let us do what we needed to do online. We also figured out that it worked better on partly cloudy days, only partly cloudy. It wouldn't work on Sunny days or days where all you see is clouds and it rains (which has been mostly this summer). Mind you this Started in April, it is now the Middle of July and we are still having issues.
Last week Richard got sick of it not working and called clearwire to see what was going on cause it wasn't just us having problems, cause before all the problems started mom asked me what internet provider I used and if I would recommend them and I said yes, she gets clearwire and BAM it goes to shit. He is on the phone with them for like an hour, he does everything they say take the tower to a different window, how about a different room? Still only one bar of service huh? not holding, rotating through all five lights you say? weird ok we will have a tech support guy come to your apartment on Monday July 19th between the hours of 10am-1pm. After that phone call we got really great service, it worked as long as we were on it no problems at all, us thinking that wow maybe we don't have to worry about this tech support guy coming out cause I mean what is he going to do walk in and go oh there is a loose wire on the tower let me fix that.
So Yesterday I gave up my laundry day cause tech support was coming out, which worked out fine anyways cause I was able to get the apartment clean. A little bit before 11am I get a phone call saying that the guy would be here in less than 15 minutes, Bonus Points to the tech guy for not making me wait forever. He shows up comes in and we start talking about the problems that Richard and I were having with the net. The guy works on his laptop for a couple of minutes, moves the tower around asks when we noticed having problems I guestamated about April, he goes back to the laptop looks at it some more then goes yup it was April and huh. I'm sorry but you never want to hear HUH come out of a tech support guy. Because that means that you have just stumped him.
He calls me over to his laptop and shows me the coverage area and says see you guys are covered but you are the the edge of 3 towers which shouldn't make a difference cause you shouldn't be having any problems at all. He then explained it to me as dropped calls and showed me how many "dropped calls" we have been getting with our service. Lets just say that last year we had only a few like maybe 5-10 a month which is normal, they went from that to 80-100 and just this month alone to over 1500 "dropped calls" which is bad. THen told us to cancel our internet through them cause he can't fix the problem we are having and that there is no point in paying them money. For a tech support to say that means a lot.
When Richard got home from work I told him what the guy said, and we went to go see how much dsl through ACS was going to cost us. There is no start up fee since we had at one point a phone through them so it's basically $89.00 a month for internet and phone. SO we will once again have a home phone again. Plus it will have caller id, call waiting and 100 interstate long distant minutes. All of that is included in the 89 bucks a month. So we signed up yesterday and now just have to wait for our modem to show up in the mail and for our phone line to be turned back on and to get a piece of paper in the mail with our new phone number on it.
So I do not recommend clearwire to anyone! they are a horrible company that doesn't know their head from the hole in the ground. All I got to say is thank god we never got a home phone threw them like they were pushing us to do cause it wouldn't of been working since April. WE still are putting up with clearwire till our modem shows up then we are canceling and never looking back and we are going to tell people not to go with them if they live in this area at all cause they would just be throwing their money down the toilet. Oh the tech guy even told me to tell mom how to get out of her 2 year contract with them, which is basically having her call and ask for tech support to come out and since it's just this guy he will come out and go yeah I can't help and the kill the contract for her so she can call and cancel with out being charged for ending the contract early.
Monday, July 19, 2010
On a funny note, while waiting for the second movie to start I ran off to the bathroom walked in and had no problems. Which in all honesty surprised me cause there is usually always a line for the woman's restroom at the movie theater at least when I go. I went back to the theater and Richard said he would be right back cause he too had to use the restroom, he comes back about 10 minutes later sits down next to me and told me there was a line to use the men's restroom. I about died laughing just cause I couldn't believe it. Richard even said himself that he was shocked and thought it was amusing.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
I am Half way through Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (year 4). Since my friend Tara hasn't been able to be online during the day, I have been reading more. I am still enjoying the books. I can see myself reading them to our kids if we ever have any.
Other than that Richard and I are doing a movie date night tonight. We are going and seeing Toy Story 3, Twilight Saga: Eclipse (second time) and depending on how we feel after those two possibly Despicable Me as well. I always love when we go to movies. It's something we don't do very often anymore so we are treating ourselves. Plus it's dark and raining so what better to do then go to the movies!
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
In other news, I start job hunting in a couple of weeks. I have to have a meeting with my counselor from DVR and the lady I don't like before the job hunt begins. This is just to go over what is expected and so on and so forth. It's at least 3 weeks away if not longer cause my counselor at DVR is very busy. SO I am sitting around waiting for the phone call to set up the appointment.
We got permission to go back to the gym as long as Richard takes it easy, no working up a sweat for him. But both him and I are happy that we can go back and start working out again.
In other news, two of my dear friends from California are in Alaska and I get to see them on Saturday! I'm looking forward to seeing them. THey are getting together with a bunch of people on Saturday for breakfast and then possibly all going to the Saturday market afterwords depending on the weather. Should be fun.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
I had a great day today, I lounged around the apartment for most of it, I read a little more of the first Harry Potter book (3rd time through the series), did some dishes, watched Avatar, and then went up to mom's house so we could go out for my birthday dinner. Josh, mom, Richard and I went to FireTap for dinner and man o man was it good. I had this dish that is made with eggplant and was only able to eat maybe half of it. Then back to moms we went for cake and so I could pick up my gifts from her, she surprised me with 2 puzzles. So all and all it turned out to be a very good day for me.
Richard isn't nearly in as much pain as he was. He still hurts but can move a lot easier than what he was and that thrills me. this is the second day of him not having that much pain so things are looking good. He has the next 2 days off work and a physical therapy appointment on Tuesday where we are going to ask about going to the gym. We haven't gone at all this last week cause he was in so much pain and we didn't want to make things worse.
The only thing I really can complain about is the doc in the box doc, She just didn't listen to us when we went there Friday. Richard was in a lot of pain and wanted something for it, but we wanted to make sure that he could still work while on the pain killers. She said if she gave him something that he wouldn't be able to drive but could still work. I told her how can he work if he can't drive and she said well he has to sit down to work, no power equipment, then I said if he can't drive can you give him a note saying that he can't work cause I can't drive. Then she says well what do you guys want to do? and we are sitting there looking at her going I dunno doc what do you want us to do? She leaves to call Richards physical therapy doc, and when she comes back I asked well how about an anti inflammatory, she agrees then says I will give you prescription strength advil. Which by the way is 4 regular advil combined into one pill. Advil wasn't helping him to begin with and he was taking 5 advil with no effect at all. We tell her this and says well this is different. NO IT'S NOT! My mom is a nurse, it's the same damn thing as the over the counter shit! Then she gives Richard a script for a pain killer, just enough for the weekend and tells him to keep taking the muscle relaxers that he has. SO she wanted him on advil, a pain killer that has Tylenol in it (which all pain kills have in them) and the Formula 303's which is the natural muscle relaxer. Richard and I both agreed that this wasn't a good combination so he hasn't done it. To make matters worse, the physical therapy doc told him to just relax this weekend and do pretty much nothing, the other doc says that the best thing to do for lower back pain is to use your back! Excuse me? you tell us to take him to physical therapy then you tell us to ignore what the doc says and do what you say? I called her on it and she back pedals and says well don't have him just sitting on the couch and you bringing him everything he wants make him get up and get stuff and go to the bathroom is what I mean.
Ok, Richard and I aren't the thinnest people out there, well scratch that we are just plain fat we get this. We are trying to do something about it, not as hard as we could be but we are trying. Now mind you at this point in the doc visit Richard has given up talking to her cause he is frustrated and just wants to leave, so I am doing all the talking and he can tell that I'm about 5 seconds away from getting up and slapping this lady cause she just isn't listening and stuff, She looks me straight in the eyes and says you guys need to join weight watchers. WTF? umm yeah with what money? I was about to give her what she had coming but I bit my tongue and said, are we through here cause I would like to get him home so he can rest. Thus ends the visit. I'm sorry but come on like we don't know we are fat? we don't need to be reminded of it, and the way she said it was quite rude.
Anyways, we have to go back to the doc in the box on Tuesday but luckily for us she wont be there and a different doc will be. I hope it's the main doc there cause if it is I am going to lodge a complaint about her.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Richard is in a lot of pain, I have never seen him hurt like this before and it scares me. The pain is mostly in his lower back but says that occasionally it radiates down to his knees. That's what is freaking me out the most, cause mom said if its radiating down to his knees it means he injured his spinal cord. So now I am all freaked out because of this and jumped to the worse possible thing which is, what if he can't work at Lowe's anymore? What if he can't work at all period, what are we going to do then? We can't afford to not have him working, I'm not working yet and if he can't work we are screwed and deff can't live in our apartment cause we won't be able to afford it. What do we do then, cause living with his parents again is deff out of the question, and we can't live with mom cause it just wouldn't be good to have all of us under one roof like that.
All of that caused me to have a mini melt down last night, I just got too overwhelmed with those thoughts. Richard went to bed and I came out here to the computer and about 10 minutes later he came out because he knew I was upset and made me tell him what was wrong. I broke down started crying and confessed all my fears to him. Then felt bad about doing so cause I know he is worried about it too, but I felt a bit better about him now knowing what was bugging me so bad. I tried to hide it from him cause I didn't want him to worry about me and how I am handling it. I want him to focus on getting better.
As far as I know, he could make a full recovery and all will be fine. Which is what I am hoping for. But right now we are playing that nasty game of wait and see. I hate that game cause it makes me play the what if game and that does us no good.
In other news I have an appointment at DVR today that I'm not looking forward to cause I know what she is going to say to me. She is going to tell me to start looking for a job because CHD isn't going to hire me. At least that's what I am thinking she is going to say to me, that and that I have to start working with that lady that I don't really like.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
While I was cleaning out my room at moms house a few weeks back I found a cassette tape that my dad had recorded a conversation that him and I had back when I was 3 and we were taping up my room to paint it pink. I just barely remember doing this, I remember a day where he recorded us talking but couldn’t remember why or what we were doing. Before I go into what was said on this tape I feel I need to explain some things about me so you can understand just how far I have come in my almost 27 years of life.
If you are family or a family friend you all know I was 17 days overdue and mom wanted me out, and that I have some medical and learning problems. Nothing to drastic but I have always been hard of hearing and very much dyslexic. Because of my hearing problems I have a speech problem, it’s not so noticeable today but it does rear its ugly head every now and then. When I was little I had to go through speech therapy so I could learn how to pronounce ph and th and for some weird reason if I remember correctly sp. I only say this because I couldn’t say spoon, it came out poon. Needless to say I had a very hard time pronouncing simple words and my parents bless their souls probably couldn’t understand 99% of the stuff I was saying. In fact mom likes to tell me that my brother was the only one that could ever figure out what I was saying if they couldn’t. Today after being in speech therapy from the age of 3 to about 10 years I can now say almost any word without a problem, yes there is still a few that I stumble over and some that I will never try to say cause I know I will never get them right. But I have learned to cope with my hearing loss and speech problems.
Now back to the conversation that was recorded. As far as I can figure out the reasons dad recorded the conversation was probably to A.) Have a record of me as a little girl, B.) Get me talking and help me learn how to pronounce words and C.) To show me just how far I came along in my speech problems. Apparently from what dad says on the tape I hardly talked while in speech therapy and only said 2 word sentences and he was basically doing the tape to show them that I actually did know how to speak more then what I was while in therapy.
There is a part in the tape where my dad is moving the chest of drawers to put tape behind it and he asks me to say it and needless to say what I say sounds nothing like chest of drawers. Dad laughs and says you have problems with that don’t you and little me says yeah and then I change the subject to monsters on my wall. To this day I very vividly remember laying in bed when I was 3 and looked over at the wall where my nightlight was and saw this shadow that looked like a troll go running across my wall above the nightlight. Dad goes on to say there’s no monster in your room is there? And I respond with no just on my walls. Which he responds with “well there can’t be monsters in your room because you have Max the germen Sheppard guard dog and he won’t let them get you and you have me and I will save you from them” I responded with “yeah you will save me”.
Dad says towards the end of the tape that I have no idea how much me sitting there talking to him is going to help me in the long run and that by talking to him nonstop while he was taping up my room that I proved my teacher wrong about not talking. I believe the reason I didn’t talk much as a young kid was that I was and still am shy and a lot of it has to do with the fact that when I was little people couldn’t understand me.
I’m thankful that I was able to go to speech therapy to help me learn how to pronounce words; yes I will never be able to say Chest of drawers right in a million years. It’s just one of the many words that I still have trouble with. When you first meet me, you would never know that I was the same little girl whose parents couldn’t even understand her. To this day my mom still corrects me when I mess up a word which happens every now and again. I get nervous when talking to new people and actually have to stop and think about what I am going to say so I can pronounce it right. I will never be the world’s best speller because of my hearing problems but I muddle through and do the best that I can with what god gave me and spell check. But I have come a long way in my almost 27 years of life and I am proud of what I managed to accomplish, even if it was just that my parents and the world could understand me when I talk.
Friday, June 11, 2010
I have finally managed to catch up in my reading. I am on my last new book till later this month and I am almost done with it. Then I can read a series that I started to kill time till the next 2 new books hit the stores.
Richard has been working a lot of overtime the past couple of weeks, so his up coming check will be nice. It has made it a bit tricky getting me home from CHD but we have managed. Yesterday mom was nice enough to pick me up after she got off of work. Which worked out great cause it gave me an extra hour to work on that paper sorting.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Today I went over and helped mom start cleaning and organizing her living room, I mostly was shredding old bills and bank statements for her. I have gone 3 rounds with the shredder and I'm not even half way through the pile of paper I have to shred. For lunch Pat took mom and I out to Girdwood. It was a beautiful ride and the food was excellent. Richard was again at work today and is also pulling another night shift then having to work his regular shift tomorrow.
Tomorrow I am headed back over to moms, to do laundry and go a few more rounds with the shredder, I am also going to help mom mow the lawn and finish cleaning up the living room, dinning room and Kitchen. She is finally getting rid of stuff that she doesn't need or use.
Next Saturday (June 5th) is Our 6 year anniversary. Richard has a 3 day weekend then, which is nice. A childhood friend of mine is getting married on the same day, so we figured what a cool way to celebrate our anniversary by going to a wedding. Other than that I think we are just going to spend some much needed quality time with each other, cause we really haven't seen much of each other these last couple of days.
I worked at CHD only one day last week cause they really didn't have anything for me to do. They had stuff for me Friday but I couldn't make it in due to the fact that I didn't have a ride home because of Richard having to work a double shift and then just wanting to come home and crash. I don't blame him either. I will give them a call on Tuesday and see if they want me to come in then.