Friday, January 30, 2009

A short update on me

Not much going on here at the moment, its snowing pretty good, which I have always enjoyed cause its so peaceful. I am hanging out at moms house with her today cause she has the day off. She has to work this weekend though so thats a bummer but she has to do what she has to do. I wish she didn't have to work so hard but she does.

We find out today if Richard gets the department managers spot in paint at Lowe's. I hope he gets it because it means more money for us and less we have to borrow from mom. I have also had my second meeting with DVR. Now we are just waiting for medical records to be given to them to see if I do qualify for their services.

Kramer is doing good. I had to loosen his collar up a notch so I think he has put on some weight. Him, Alex and Data (mom's cats) have to go to the vet sometime next month for the usual shots, check ups and teeth cleaning. So when that happens I won't have a very happy kitty. He will also get his nails clipped then too. They are so sharp right now that I can't stand to have him kneed me for very long cause it feels like I am being poked to death.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

random thought bubbles

Here I sit battling a very small case of heartburn.Just bad enough to keep me awake. So I have all these thoughts going through my mind why not type them out for all my friends to read. So here I go, this is my mind in a nut shell.

I keep thinking about my weight, how I want to loose most of it and how I need to loose it and what I can do to loose it. I had to cancel my gym membership due to the fact that in order to get health insurance we needed to make some adjustments in our monthly bills. We cancled cable and the gym which is what we needed to do now I just have to find a way to exercise in the apartment with out the walls crumbling from a hippo jumping around. I am starting to again watch what I eat but to make it work I need to burn more calories then what I eat. Any suggestions ??

I also of course as most if not all of you know want to badly to make Richard a father, he would make such a good one. this too relates to my weight but its in my head so there. I have this fear that it will never happen that I won't be able to have kids. His father isn't much help with this because he said at Thanksgiving that he has come to the realazation that he won't ever be a grandparent. It pissed me off so bad because one Richard and I have only been married for a little over 4 and 1/2 years and two I'm not even 30 yet and he is counting me out. My mom didnt have me till she was 31 so I still have time.

I need a job but when I get them I can't hang on to them because I get so overwhelmed by them that I get freaked out, or they say that I just won't work out and let me go. I got in touch with DVR and am going to go to an oriontation class on Tuesday and go from their with them. I hope I qualify for their services I think I do since I am hard of hearing. Maybe they know what I should do or what the hell is wrong with me and how I can get and keep and be happy with a job. I told Richard that I think the best kind of job for me is one where I stare at a computer all day entering in information in a cubical with no human contact where I do the same thing day in and day out. Only if I could find this job.

In three days my friend Diane will have been gone for 5 years. I still miss her to this day. I so looked forward to checking my email to see if I had one from her. Just this Christmas my mom got me a new chain for the necklace Diane got me back in 2002. The chain it was on broke over a year ago and I felt so weird not wearing it. I guess in a way wearing it makes me feel closer to her, like in a weird way that she is still around, like a piece of her is with me ya know? I need to still get a better chain for it cause the one I have now catches my hair really bad.

Those are the major thought bubbles in my head at this moment in time. they continue to tumble around aimlessly. Keeping me just on the verge of sleep. One of these days I hope to pop them all so I don't have to worry about them but till that day, they will be there just out of reach of the needle.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

a look back at 08 and a look forward to 09

Well its the first day 0f 2009 and all I can say is where did last year go? So here is a look back on 08 and a look forward to 09. January of last year found Richard and I moving yet again for the 5Th time. We moved back to the apartment complex that we origanally started out in when we moved into Anchorage after we were first married. same apartment number as last time just 2 buildings down from the first one, so same layout and everything.

July I celebrated my 25th birthday. Nothing fancy just dinner with the family. Hard to believe that I am 25 turning 26 I remember being 6 and thinking I would never be 18. July is also when Richard and I joined a gym. We went for a while and I lost weight. then he had to do overnight shifs and we stopped going and just this last week cancled the gym so we could afford health insurance. I have since gained some of the weight back but am yet again going to try and loose it.

I had a job and lost a job back in the fall. I'm not to worried about it cause I know that when the right job comes around I will be ready for it.

2009 Brings a lot of mile stones I believe. First off in June Richard and I will Celebrate our 5th wedding anniversary. Some friends can't believe it has been that long. I am thankfull that we have made it to this milestone. So YAY US!!!

I am also looking forward to a bunch of friends and family having babies, my cousin Jayme and my good friend Kaori are both due in Febuary, my friend Alma is due in April. Plus who knows who else will tell me that they are expecting. One of these days I will make the ranks of mom to be.

Richard and I will also be saving up money to go to California in December to his grandparents Christmas Party. We have been wanting to go for years now and we decided that this was the year to do it. He is saving his vacation up so we can go down for two weeks and maybe while down there go see my dear friend Larry in Long Beach and my Aunt in Grass Valley.

I wish only the best for all my friends, family and all you of course who read my Blog. I hope this year finds you Happy and Healthy.