tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24344674107638251542024-03-14T00:11:26.385-08:00songs about meStephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.comBlogger349125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-59994714747976858302021-02-03T17:54:00.003-09:002021-02-03T17:54:51.816-09:00The Long Road to Recovery <p> <span> </span>A lot has happened since I last posted. This includes 2 more hospital stays and I don't even know how many trips to the ER. I was taken back to the ER Christmas night because my legs were so swollen and pale, I mean I'm pale to begin with but they were ghost white. Turns out my body was rejecting the blood thinner that they sent me home with and I got a blood clot in my right leg, I was admitted for 48hrs and put back onto the original blood thinner I was on so I now have to give myself a shot twice a day. </p><p><span> </span>The third hospital stay I kept off of Facebook because I didn't want to freak out my friends and family. I ended up calling 911 and being taken to the ER by ambulance. because hubby was at work and I was home alone and I just felt wrong. I was dizzy, both arms and my chest were tingling/burning. We don't know what caused it but I was admitted again for about 48hrs to keep an eye on me. This was January 5th that that happened. Since then I have had a few more ER visits because of my heart freaking me out because it would just randomly start to beat fast and harder then normal. 1 heart monitor and cardiologist appointment later my heart is totally fine and is probably just working a little harder at some points because of the clots and stress. After the appointment with the cardiologist my heart has calmed down which he said it most likely would because I now know for sure that its ok so I'm not stressing over it as well. </p><p><span> </span>Next week I go to the hematologist to see if I have any unknown blood diseases/problems. Which means probably more blood draws and scans. It will be interesting to see if I do in fact have a problem that we just didn't know I had until now. </p><p><span> </span>Last week I had yet another trip to the ER due to being dizzy and my heart acting up at the same time. SO I got yet another CT scan this time of my head and my first ever MRI again of my head to make sure I didn't have any bleeds and or had a stroke and what not all came back clear. But mom came up with an idea that I am now in the process of seeing if I have it. What is it? its called Meniere's Disease and all it is is an inner ear disorder that causes vertigo attacks. It's not deadly or anything it just basically will randomly make me dizzy for a bit then goes away. So I need to get a hearing test and thankfully since I had the CT scan and MRI my ENT can just pull those and look at them instead of making me go through them again. So if you are keeping tract that would be 3 ear problems if I do have it. I also have otosclerosis and estuation tube disfunction why not go for the trifecta. </p><p><span> </span>To say I'm sick of seeing doctors in an understatement but I know I have to so I go cause I know its important. I have also seen my main doctor last week which was a good visit as she was happy to see that I'm doing better then what I was the first time she saw me. She also got me a temp handicap placer to help me with my walking and stuff through the rest of winter. She's pretty sure my blood clots are COVID related so I told her how we thought I had it back in 2019 cause all my symptoms matched so I have to bring that up at my appointment next week with the hematologist. </p><p><span> I did go see my OBGYN because I can no longer have any hormonal birth control. We are trying some pills that will make me have a period every 2 months, no hormones in the pills. if those don't work than she will put me into a medically induced menopause which will require me to see her once a month for a shot for a while. Just what I need yet another shot. Here's hoping the pills work.</span><br /></p><p><span> Mentally I'm doing ok, I'm not going to lie, it's tough not being able to do everything I want to do and be independent like I once was. You would think having people dote over you and help you all the time would be great, it was for about 2 days and now it's just like just let me do it!! It's frustrating not being able to do stuff or go at the speed that I want to go at. I know everyone who is helping me and getting on me to take it easy is just watching out for me and cares about me and I do truly appreciate it and love them for it but I'm so fiercely independent and now I can't be at the moment. I also know I am truly lucky and very much loved by a lot of people and that feeling, that knowing that they all care is amazing. I'm truly blessed with amazing friends. I know that some of them will probably read this so thank you for helping me, I love you all!! </span><br /></p><p><span>I have had some small victories as well. Saturday I was able to get a haircut and then I even went grocery shopping! Mind you I was walking slower than normal in the store but I was able to do it! The other victory was back in January when the swelling finally went down and I was able to wear my shoes again. Each improvement is exciting to me, it means I'm getting closer to back to normal. </span></p>Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-64803400999096527252020-12-23T18:10:00.001-09:002020-12-23T18:10:49.327-09:00I Almost Died<p> Tuesday December 15th was just a normal day for me, or so I thought. I woke up and got hubby off to work and proceeded to the computer to watch some videos, check Facebook you know the usual stuff. I was killing time till my Tellehealth appointment with my ENT because I had yet another sinus infection. Right before my appointment I went to the bathroom and realized I was a little short of breath but thought nothing off it as I always get that way with sinus infections. My appointment happens I make mention of the shortness of breath to the doctor and he also doesn't seem to worried about it as it happens to me every sinus infection I get meds sent to the pharmacy and continue on about my day. I started a new knitting project while sitting at the desk watching Netflix feeling fine just congested from the sinus infection. Hubby comes home from work we talk nothing out of the normal and THEN I decided to walk from the Computer desk to our couch which is all of maybe 3 feet apart to sit down and knit, that's where it all went wrong.</p><p>I sit down on the couch and I feel like an asthmatic who ran the Boston Marathon I can't catch my breath at all, my chest is hurting and burning, I look over to my husband and ask him to get my inhaler so I can try and get this shit under control it did nothing! didn't touch it at all so my next move while still breathing really hard is calling my mom up, she's a retired nurse and my go to for medical advice. She tells me to calm down, take nice deep breaths and it isn't working so she suggests going and sitting in the bathroom with the shower running and sitting in steam for a few to see if it helps and to call her back after I'm done. I go sit in the bathroom with steam and its not helping in fact I have now thrown up a little so back out I go to the couch still gasping for air. At this point I look at my husband and tell him to call mom cause I cant talk very well. She tells us that if I can't get this under control then we need to decided if I go to the ER or not. We hang up with her look at each other and talk for a few seconds and decide to go to the ER. </p><p>It takes me a good 5-10 minutes to walk to our truck and then off to the ER we go. When we get there hubby goes and gets a wheelchair for me and wheels me in and has to speak for me, they rush me back to do an EKG on me to make sure I'm not actively having an heart attack. I'm not but they can see that I'm having problems breathing and whisk me off to the back to be taken care of. I have so many people around me trying to help me, I don't even remember how I got out of my shirt and into the hospital gown but it happens, I get COVID tested, somewhere in there they start an IV, I get inhaler treatments, my blood pressure is through the roof my pulse is through the roof and no matter how calm I am I can't breathe. I get an ultrasound of my heart and then a ct scan and then another ultrasound of my heart and one of my legs. They have taken blood from me giving me meds and all I can do is lay on that gurney and try not to cry because my husband can't be with me because of COVID. I'm then told I will be admitted to the hospital for at least 72 hours and that I have blood clots on both sides of my lungs and one of them is massive and pressing on my heart. They start me on blood thinners while in the ER waiting for a room to open up for me in the PCU. </p><p>I spent the night in the ER and then was finally admitted up to PCU in the morning. I am hardly eating anything because I'm nauseas and everything takes a lot of effort. I get winded just walking the very short distance to the bathroom with the help of my nurses. I'm given anxiety meds and anti nausea meds. </p><p>Friday December 18th it's 4am and they are doing their rounds of getting vitals and drawing blood and a nurse or a Tech comes in asking me that before I lay back down to let them weigh me so I say ok lets do this. She goes and gets the scale, I stand up every thing is fine, I step on the scale everything is still fine, then I sit on the edge of the bed to catch my breath before getting back into and the room starts to spin on me. There are a bunch of nurses checking on my roommate and I very politely go "Excuse me I don't mean to interrupt but the room is spinning." and then I passed out. The next thing I know I'm laying flat on my back at an angle in the bed and a nurse is telling me to wake up. I come to and am looking up at at least 5 faces looking down at me. It turns out the Tech that weighed me stayed right in front of me and when I passed out I pitched forward and was going to fall off the bed and she shoved me back onto the bed. I'm put on bedrest, I can't leave the bed at all and an xray is ordered. That was the most painful xray I have ever had done, I couldn't roll myself from side to side so they had to do it for me and I almost puked on the floor and was in tears. </p><p>My Doctor comes in and checks on me and then later that evening comes back to talk to me and tell me that he is going to move me into the ICU for 24 hrs as I need to get a does of meds to help break up the blood clots as I'm not going into obstructive shock. I have him talk to my mom and she agrees that it's the best thing for me so I agree to go. I'm scared and alone and all I can think about is telling 2 of my friends to please keep an eye on my husband as I was about to tell him the news of me going into the ICU for 24hrs and I wanted to make sure he was ok. </p><p>Friday night to Saturday night I spend my time in the ICU and start feeling better, the meds worked! I still get a little winded walking to the bathroom but it was nothing like before. My apatite comes back and I am readmitted to the PCU. I'm there until Monday night when I am finally released to come home, which in itself is a whole other story for a different time.</p><p>I'm on blood thinners for at least 6 months, so I now have to be careful, I can lo longer use my razor and have to use an electric one, I can't fall or hit my head, and I have to be careful because I will now bruise super easy. I also need to continue losing weight. But I'm ok with all of this, why? because I almost died!! It's a real eye opener. I will now have many doctors appointments in my future for awhile I do believe. </p><p>OH yeah and before I forget I suppose I should tell you what caused me to get said blood clots, it was my birth control that I was put on to help with my PCOS. I am no longer allowed to take any hormonal birth control. I never thought in a million years that deciding to finally take care of myself and figure out what was wrong with me was going to damn near kill me. I was only on the pills for just shy of 2 months. But there it is, there is the story of how I almost died. I am very lucky and grateful to be sitting here today a week later writing this down. I also had an amazing outpouring of love and prayers from family and friends and complete strangers helping me get through this and to them I am forever grateful. </p>Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-48663744511584773942020-11-30T00:03:00.004-09:002020-11-30T00:03:38.091-09:00PCOS Journey (warning TMI)<p> Today I'm going to talk about my PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) journey. I have touched on in in a few previous posts but I'm going to go into what I'm doing about it now and some of the things that aren't really talked about that happen when you have it. First of all there isn't a lot really known about it, you can treat it but there isn't a cure and it isn't understood what causes it, it could be a combination of genetics and environmental factors. It's a hormonal disorder and can cause acne and facial hair, I have the facial hair and I don't really have the acne problem. PCOS is also very common there is about 200,000+ cases of it diagnosed a year. Yes you have to be diagnosed with it and honestly its not that hard to diagnose at all, it just requires an ultrasound and some lab work. I of course don't have all the signs of PCOS as I don't have the cysts on the ovaries. but not every woman gets every symptom. </p><p>Here is a list of my symptoms:</p><p>Facial hair which I am treating with a medicine and am seeing results</p><p>skipping periods for months at a time</p><p>Heavy bleeding when I do have a period</p><p>Over weight (skinny girls can have it too)</p><p>mine is also insulin resistant which plays in to my weight</p><p><br /></p><p>I had a 2 choices for treatment which were, go on birth control, which will cause me to have a period every month as long as I'm on it, or take a medication once every 3 months if I didn't have a period on my own that causes me to have one but it would be harder on my body because my period would be heavy and longer than the average 5-7 days that most women's are. Which technically mine already is as when I do have one it lasts from 9-14 days. Or if it's this last January damn near a month long. The second option also costs more money, where as birth control is free with our insurance. Plus the longer I'm on birth control the more control I have over my period it can get to the point of only being a couple of days and normal and not as heavy as it has been all year. Needless to say I went with the birth control option, it will be easier on my body once it gets used to it. My doctor did warn me that my first few periods would be wonky/off and boy was she right. </p><p>I've been on birth control for 1 month, I just started my second month on Friday which means I've had my first period while on it. Mind you it didn't last as long as January, this one was only 13 days, I'm tracking them on my phone to see if there is improvements and what not. BUT it was SUPER HEAVY!! I went through a 2 month supply of over night pads in 13 days!! Yes you heard right a 2 month supply of the pads that cover you from your taco to your ass in 13 days! That's a lot of pads! </p><p>No one talks about that, that your period is just HORRID, I didn't want to laugh, sneeze or even stand up cause that could cause me to throw period clots yes again sorry for the TMI but it's a part of PCOS. What causes them is the fact that I don't bleed so it gets thick and then when I do decide to bleed it sluffs off and because its been more than a month its thick and well a clot. Heck just shifting in my sleep could cause one to happen, Hopefully the birth control will help with that as well. I'm hoping that December's period is better then this month but we will have to wait and see.</p><p>So for now and the foreseeable future I'm on 6 different meds taken either morning or night. I have a reminder on my phone for the nighttime meds because if I don't have it I forget to take them. Not all of the meds are for the PCOS as you know from earlier posts I have a few different medical problems. I hate having to be reliant on meds but I will do it because I know they are helping me.</p>Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-74660171240110017072020-09-17T23:46:00.000-08:002020-09-17T23:46:10.008-08:00Sickly Zebra UnicornI have talked about my health many times on here... Since December I have had one heck of a time staying healthy. I’ve been plagued with one illness after another with maybe a week or a few in between them if lucky. I have made it my quest this year to figure out why the heck this year has been so bad for me, so far I haven’t got any answers and in some aspects have even more questions. This summer alone I’ve had a 2 sinus infections 1 ear infections and strep throat and that was in a 3 month stretch. Needless to say I’m frustrated and feeling a little helpless about it. I’m trying everything I can thank of to boost my immune system and so far I really don’t see a difference.<div><br /></div><div>My mom while talking to a friend last month said something about me and it was the first time I had ever heard her call me that and it shook me to my core. Don’t get me wrong it was nothing bad but I just had never really thought of myself that way and now I can’t help but think it. She said “ you know she has always been sickly” I mean she isn’t wrong at all, I’m constantly sick with something it seems. I just never thought of me as sickly, when I think of someone being sickly I think of people with worse problems then me but I guess I fall into that category. I know I am considered high risk for COVID-19 even though we are pretty dang sure I had it back in December. Speaking of that, when I was recovering from my “unknown upper respiratory infection” I was talking to my mom One day and I said something along the lines of I was just tired, tired of being sick all the time, tired of fighting it. Mom said it was the first time she had ever heard me sound just utterly defeated and that I sounded like I had given up. Not going to lie I had pretty much given up thinking I was ever going to get better. Quarantine was super hard for me mentally too, I had been basically in self quarantine since December and then in March when I was finally better we had to quarantine to flatten the curve of COVID-19. It was extremely hard on me not being able to see my friends for months on end, </div><div><br /></div><div>I went to see an endocrinologist last week to see about having Cushings and according to him I don’t. Within 5 minutes of walking into the exam room and just looking at me he said I had PCOS and that was before he ever laid a finger on me. It felt like because I wasn’t diabetic that he didn’t want to treat me. He just kept going on about losing weight and the different ways I can go about doing it. Another reason I was sent is because my testosterone levels had increased since my last blood test and every time I tried to bring that up he talked over me about losing weight. When he asked if I had any questions I finally for like the 5th time brought up my levels and how do I bring them down and shocker his answer was lose weight. I left feeling like I had just wasted an hour of my time and slightly more confused as to why my OBGYN sent me there in the first place. I have an appointment with her on Oct 14th to go over some questions I have about it and to try for the 3rd time to get my pap done... so on that front I’m kinda on a standstill till I see her again. </div><div><br /></div><div>Still on the struggle buss about being sickly and accepting that I will always be on meds to help try and control my sinus and ear problems. I’m on 3 different allergy meds to help keep my ears and sinuses behaving. I have Eustachian tube dysfunction and otosclerosis in my left ear. Yep I’m a bundle of fun and damn near every time my ears act up I end up on steroids because my uvula decides to swell up and makes it so its hard to breathe. OH yeah and I have been told by doctors that I can be put on a nebulizer at home because when I get really congested and having problems breathing my O2 sats go down to low which is why I tend to randomly pass out and sleep for 30min-1hr at a time. My ENT calls me an enigma and I just have to laugh, doctors are told to not look for the zebra or the unicorn when trying to find out what’s wrong with someone and here I come, I am the zebra unicorn!!</div>Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-372237354128721482020-03-06T12:10:00.000-09:002020-03-06T12:10:34.700-09:00Period Talk (you've been warned)When I was about oh probably 16 I went to an OBGYN because my periods were irregular I would go months with out having one then have one and go months again. Mind you I was overweight as a teen, heck I'm still overweight and yes I'm pretty sure that plays a part in it and I'm working on that more later. I also sadly have an issue with some facial hair, I fucking hate it, it annoys me and yes I shave it so I don't have to deal with it. Anyways, it was said that I more than likely had PCOS which I was showing signs of because of the hair and irregular periods and that there were ways of making me regular which was birth control.. I went home and we did try the birth control once and it worked I did in fact have a period that month. But nothing ever came of it and we just assumed I had PCOS. <div>
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Then this January hit and omg period from HELL, I mean worse one ever!!!! I started on Dec 31st and didn't stop till Jan 17th! and it wasn't light it was heavy as fuck (sorry for the TMI) SO off to my general practitioner she orders an ultrasound and blood work all which come back basically normal and then recommends me to an OBGYN that can help me better. SO I go and she wants to get more blood work done looking at different things and looks at my ultrasound and guess what? We were wrong turns out I don't have PCOS. So now I'm wondering if my abnormal periods are just cause I am overweight. also I'm pre diabetic so I got put on meds to help with that and am trying to lose more weight.</div>
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BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE, it turns out that I might have Cushing's Syndrome which is treatable but could help explain the weight problems and hair problems well that and the fact that I have more testosterone then I should being produced. thank you blood work. So they want me to go see an endocrinologist, so I will look into that here in a week or so. </div>
Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-85003598530829400442020-02-26T12:55:00.002-09:002020-02-26T12:55:56.075-09:00FriendshipI've been sitting here thinking about all my friends. My friend group is small but I wouldn't change it at all, I have some great people in my life and they all mean something different to me. There are some that I know I can tell them anything at all no matter what it is and they won't judge me for it. I have friends whom I know I can go to with a problem or a fear and they will listen and help me through it. There are even the friends that I can totally just act 12 with and be totally silly. And yes some of these friends fit in each group that I just listed. I don't really have a best friend cause how could I choose just one? They all mean the world to me and are the best friend I need at that time when I am hanging with them. I love them all. It doesn't matter how long I've known them Some I've known for over 20 years others going on 2 years and anywhere in between. Heck some of them I have never met in person.<br />
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<br />Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-40322241140727103592020-02-20T22:30:00.001-09:002020-02-20T22:30:12.073-09:00brain stewIt's 10pm and I'm the only one awake here, hubby has to go to work at 2:30am to do inventory for work. I have always had problems with him working nights, I never sleep well. It's not that I can't be alone cause I totally can be, it's the fact that he isn't in bed snoring next to me so something is just missing ya know? I have grown accustomed to him being there so when he's not it throws me off completely. Plus I will go to sleep here shortly only to have to wake up at 1:30 to make sure he is up and ready to go, then it will take me at least an hour if not longer to fall back asleep after he leaves. I'm thankful he doesn't have to do this more than twice a year now, it used to be every 3 months but work changed that.<br />
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I'm struggling with my weight loss journey, I was doing really well then faltered and am struggling to get back on track with it. A lot of that is that I'm home all day at the moment due to wanting to make sure I am 100% healthy and ready to go back out in the public full force. I will force myself out of the house after Spring Break for schools up here happens which is the second week of March. I know right now that I could totally go out and be fine. Rationally I know this, but I'm scared to fully take that leap of faith and do it. I was SO sick from mid-November till the end of January. I have never been sick that bad/long before. I honestly thought in December that I was going to end up admitted to the hospital for Christmas if I didn't get better or got worse. So, for now, I'm home and bored. When I get bored I eat. I'm trying so hard to get back on track but just keep failing. But every day is a new day and a fresh start, one of these days it will stick right? I know it will I just gotta be a little more determined and not sabotage myself like I have been. Don't judge me, you can't say anything that I haven't already said to myself, I'll get there cause I know I can, I just have to get over this hurdle of being afraid to get sick again.<br />
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That's all for now, it's getting late and I need to get at least a little sleep before I have to wake up and send hubby off to work. Thanks for listening, even though I don't know if anyone is actually reading this but me. Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-58874514988901426522020-02-05T14:04:00.001-09:002020-02-05T14:04:36.374-09:00I"m Back!Years have gone by with out me writing on here and honestly I have missed it. It's been quite a ride the last few years, so many changes have happened and yet I'm very much still the same person I was, just older with more gray hair and a few less pounds. I don't know who will read this or if anyone will but that's totally fine and if you are reading this and know all the stuff I am covering in this post already, think of it as a refresher course. I'm not going to go over everything that has happened since I last posted cause good lord that would take forever and honestly I can't remember everything.<br />
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The Last time I posted on here was February of 2015, 5 years ago, WOW! Yes I just looked that up cause I had no idea when and or what my post was. Sooo I guess I should do a little life update now on the hubby and I. I will start with him and go from there. Grab a drink, get comfy cause you're in for quite a ride in the next few paragraphs.<br />
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Richard no longer works for Brown's Electric, long painful story short, he got injured while on the job at the end of January 2017 (sprained his knee). While on Workman's Comp for 5 months they decided to let him go on March 1st,which is perfectly legal to do up here. At the time it threw our world upside down and we didn't know what was going to happen but it all worked out for the best. He has been working at FedEx Office for almost 3 years now, and absolutely LOVES it! His boss is awesome and we have met some pretty cool peeps from there.<br />
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March 1st will mark one year without Kramer, I miss my grumpy cat, he was such a character. I had him for 17 years, he was about 18-19 years old so he had a great long life. I'm no where ready to have another pet yet. I'm sure I will get there eventually but not just yet.<br />
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Onto me now, oh man ok lets see, I had a part time job for 2 tax seasons and loved it, while it lasted. I'm still painting ceramics, I lost a lot in an earthquake in November of 2018 but am slowly getting my numbers back up to where they were. I haven't been in to paint this year yet though due to health problems which I will cover in the next paragraph.<br />
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My health last year decided it was going to kick my ass, and boy did it ever. It started out with my left ear causing me problems after a couple ear infections and getting a tube placed I found out in September that I have <span class="ILfuVd"><span class="e24Kjd">Otosclerosis in my left ear. I now have moderate hearing loss in my left ear but there really isn't anything I can do for it at this point cause it's not bad enough for surgery. Then in November around Thanksgiving I ended up getting a cold which turned into a sinus infection, an ear infection and what we can only assume is possibly pneumonia. I was pretty dang sick in December and am amazed that I didn't end up in the hospital for Christmas cause I thought for sure I was going to. The sickness continued into the new year with yet another sinus infection and some other health problems I wont go fully into but I had to get lab work done to see if I was anemic and I'm not so that's a plus. I'm finally off of all antibiotics and just back to my allergy meds. My plan is to lay low till after the first full week of March just to make sure I'm 100%. </span></span><br />
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<span class="ILfuVd"><span class="e24Kjd">That's pretty much it for this post, until next time.</span></span><br />
<span class="ILfuVd"><span class="e24Kjd">LATER! </span></span><br />
<br />Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-4402383038951079842015-02-18T15:08:00.001-09:002015-02-18T15:08:15.368-09:0050 Shades of InsuranceSince my last post things got well........ um........... interesting to say the least. I got a surprise in my bank account at the beginning of the month and no it wasn't a good one, my health insurance that I was forced into getting got really really expensive with out notice, it went from $82.00 a month to $430.00 *thud* I about died when that was pulled out of my account. I don't have that kind of money just laying around. Needless to say I have canceled my health insurance which would of been over $200.00 this month, oh yeah and that is including the credit I was getting of $318.00 so yeah affordable my ass. I had to choose to either have health insurance and living on the street or a place to live and taking the fine next year. I took the second option, I think I made the right choice.For those wondering why I don't get put on hubby's health insurance it's because again we would have to choose place to live or insurance.<br />
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On a totally different note, I posted on Facebook about how I was sick of hearing people complaining about 50 Shades of Grey. How it romanticizes abuse and blah blah blah. I voiced my opinion saying that it's just a freaking fiction book and how if any woman went yes I want to be in an abusive relationship after reading that book is messed up in the head. Also compaired it to people being butt hurt over violent video games and music causing people to go kill people and how most people who do play and or listen to that stuff don't act out.I also stated that I haven't read the books and am not going to go out of my way to read them. Anyways someone who was against the movie responded to my post and accused me of finding stalking romantic. EXCUSE ME, WHAT???? no where in my post did I say that, I as I stated above said I hadn't read the books. I told her that and that I have been married almost 11 years and how I know what romance is because my marriage is a happy one and that she could basically stuff it. I unfriended her because I don't need anyone who accuses me of thinking stalking is romantic as a friend and she obviously doesn't know me very well. I'm still a little pissed about that. I can't believe she said that. Oh well it's done and over with.Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-6743216414833223542015-01-15T18:31:00.000-09:002015-01-15T18:31:06.564-09:00First post of the new yearHOLY SMOKES it's time for an update. I am closing in on one year soda and dessert free, let me tell you there were times where it was pretty hard, like right now for one. I have been craving freaking donuts for a week now. I keep telling myself I just have till the 27th of this month and I can have a few. I haven't really missed soda, there have been a few days where I'm like god that sounds good but they were few and far between, and mostly when my throat was bothering me, like it is now, stupid cold. Once my self imposed year ban is over with I think I will continue to be mostly soda free, I will have one every once in a while, I am also going to try and control how much dessert/ junk food I consume. I do rather well and don't have too much at one shot but when I get a craving for it or have had a particularly hard day I always want to go get some junk food. I need to really watch that and this year with out it has really opened my eyes about how I deal when I get upset. I AM AN EMOTIONAL EATER! I am going to try and be hyper aware of that this year and try not to turn to food when I get upset.<br />
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As I mentioned earlier I have a slight cold, nothing to bad really just a sore throat and a tiny bit of a runny nose and some sneezing. This winter has been really mild and I haven't been sick till now which was kinda impressive. Just my normal allergies and that was it. I have to wonder if this is just the start of my cold season this winter. I hope not I have enjoyed not having to go to the doctor every other week it seems in the winter.<br />
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I am still frequenting Color Me Mine, I got a couple times a week. I call it my happy place, plus it gets me out and socializing so I'm not at home every day doing the same things over and over again. I have met a lot of really nice people there and some not so nice ones as well the not so nice are very few and far between. I love people watching there while I'm painting. I find it rather interesting watching parents with their small kids. There are 2 types of parents that go there, the ones that let their kids paint their pieces however they like with any color they want (except black). Then there are the parents who try to control their kids and how they paint, basically the parents pick the colors they can use, tell them where each color goes and gets upset if the kids don't listen then take over and finish painting the piece. After watching both types of parents I can guess pretty accurately which type the parent is when they walk through the door with their kids. My favorite people to watch when they come in are the ones with special needs. You can totally see a change in them as they start painting and they just have so much fun doing it. There is a group that comes in every couple of weeks and they pick out their pieces sit down, start painting and then there is laughter and talking, they are always super friendly and even come over and talk to me every once in a while and tell me they really like the piece I'm working on and ask me to come look at theirs and I do and I always tell them they are doing an amazing job. Their faces just light up at the praise. <br />
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Hubby now works at the Lighting Gallery by Browns, and is no longer the delivery driver though he does still get to do the trips down to Seward every other week. He is a lot happier now that he pretty much knows when he is getting off of work and we can now easily plan when dinner is going to be. No more guessing if he will get off on time or not, that part was annoying especially if I am at Color Me Mine working on a piece, I wouldn't know if he was getting off on time or not so I always had to guess if I could get more paint and continue working or if I should put everything away.<br />
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That's about it, other then what I have mentioned it's the same ole stuff just different days, although I do believe I am out of my reading slump cause I have finished 3 books this month and am working on a 4th. Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-51261390958916241162014-11-05T11:14:00.001-09:002014-11-05T11:14:29.064-09:00Married Couple Delima <br />
Every married couple, wants at least one other married couple to hang out with on occasion, It's nothing against all the single friends, it's just nice to not have to worry about the odd man out, or even better they understand what the other couple is talking about cause they have been there. Not saying that every single friends is the odd man out either, hubby and I have a few friends who are single and love hanging with them and they are no way ever the odd one out.<br />
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Richard and I have yet to find a married couple to hang out with, not saying we have never hung out with married couples cause we do, but then it seems that the married couple starts fighting and then their marriage ends. This has happened quite a few times now. It almost makes you wonder if its us causing the problems. Now I know it's not but it seems that way to us. We do have a married couple that yes has it's problems but we spend more time with her then both of them because he is always off at work when we all have free time. 9 times out of 10 we hang with just her, then one time it's both of them. So yes they are a married couple but we don't count them cause we see her more then him. But other then that, no one. I'm not kidding about marriages falling apart either we have hung out with 4-5 married couples and all of them have ended, or are going to end. We have been hanging with another married couple the last month or so and he just called it quits with her this last weekend, after hubby and I left from hanging out with them. See? see how we think it's us?<br />
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Why can't we find a nice NORMAL, HAPPY married couple to hang out with on a regular basis and play games and do dinner with? That's all we want, as much as we like staying home and just being with each other we also love hanging out with friends. We don't get to hang with friends all that often cause all of them live very busy lives so it's when they have a spare moment, or they live to far away for regular get togethers, or they live in a different state all together. Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-40724050699474659732014-10-15T09:07:00.001-08:002014-10-15T09:07:14.825-08:00Morning RoutineGood Hello,<br />
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I really need to start writing here more often, I have let this go a bit. Oops. Since the last update a few things have changed. We rearranged our living room to fit in our new TV stand that we got with our P.F.D.'s, our TV then decided to die on us this week so now we need to go get a new one, I have finished one of my brothers Christmas gifts and haven't come close to finding a design for the second one yet, I also have gotten back into reading YAY!<br />
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I have been getting up at 6am for a few months now and have gotten quite the routine down. I get up, walk to the kitchen turn the Keurig on and get out the pods of coffee for Richard and I, fill up the water for the Keurig if need be, make Richards coffee first, while it's being made pull his lunch box out and make his lunch, switch out mugs and make my coffee, pour dry cereal into a container for Richard for breakfast while at work, get the creamer, fix up my coffee and go sit down in front of the computer till 6:30 which is usually 10-20 minutes later depending on if I have to actually make Richards lunch or just throw leftovers in. Go wake Richard up and done. I enjoy making Richard his coffee and lunch, plus it helps him not run late if all he has to do is pour creamer into his coffee put the lid on and go.<br />
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I have gotten the apartment back into shape and now again am not embarrassed if someone comes over to let them in. I'm going to try and keep it this way again. We shall see how long that lasts. I hate when I slack off, cause I know I can keep this place up and it's so much easier to just keep up with it then letting stuff pile up especially the dishes.<br />
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that's all for now, hopefully I will update this again sooner rather then laterStephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-78327577065220805762014-09-25T09:21:00.000-08:002014-09-25T09:21:20.822-08:00Hanging and paintingThe month of September has flown by for me. I want to say that's because we have been doing something every weekend this month. Mostly we have been hanging out with our friends DM and AM (not sure if they would be ok with me using their names). We all get along and have the same sense of humor, so it makes things.... interesting to say the least. We have played Cards Against Humanity with them a few times now and it's always a blast. If you don't know what CAH is, all I gotta say is look it up cause I'm not explaining it to you. I have also hung out with AM while Richard and DM and our friend B when he isn't busy with other things have gone fishing. Which they are doing this Sunday. I believe this will be the last trip of the year. as it's starting to get pretty freaking cold.<br />
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I have been spending a lot of time at Color-Me-Mine lately working on a lot of projects. I do so enjoy painting there. I think I'm going to switch gears and start making more pieces for friends as we are slowly running out of room here. Not to say I wont paint more stuff for us cause if something is really cute and I just have to have it I will get it lol. Mom is even a V.I.P. there now too and is slowly branching out and learning new techniques. Richard is going to spend some of his P.F.D. money and get a chess set to paint. This set comes with the board and all the pieces to paint. I think it would be fun to paint on it together but it's up to him. I have already started working on both my mom's and my brother's Christmas gifts. Granted my brothers is farther along then moms but that's because mom comes with me a lot when I paint so I can't paint on hers with her there.<br />
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That's pretty much been my life since the last update. just hanging with friends, and painting. Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-19441519804691567842014-08-13T11:29:00.001-08:002014-08-13T11:29:22.994-08:00Weather changeGood Hello,<br />
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There is a change in the weather now that it's pretty much the middle of August. Our summer was a pretty mild one, which was nice seeing as how last summer had some ridiculously hot days in it. The rain has come rolling in, which is nothing new for this time of year. This means that the air is going to start getting cooler and more crisp and leaves have already started changing on some trees. It's the time of year where I start grudgingly pulling out a light jacket to wear depending on the day, cause there are some days when the sun is out that it is just to warm to have a jacket on. Heck even days where I should be wearing one I might not put one on cause I'm stubborn and hate having to wear a jacket. Even when I do have to wear one it's hardly ever zipped up. This change in weather also means one more thing, THE ALASKA STATE FAIR!!!!!!!<br />
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The state fair is the last big thing to do outside before the snow flies and I love, love love going. I always have some form of a jacket even if it is just a hoody on and an umbrella cause lets just face it, it aint the fair unless it rains. I'm hoping that the clothes I ordered get here before we got cause I have a hoody I really want to wear to it if I can.<br />
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The weather change also means putting off as long as possible of turning the heat back on. We tend to turn it on at the end of September first of October. We are still sleeping with windows open till about then too, we just add more blankets to the bed. Yep we are stubborn. It also means more crock pot dishes to be made and finding out how much the PFD is for the year. I already have plans for mine so hoping it's as good as people are predicting. Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-31742615948819140492014-07-21T07:58:00.002-08:002014-07-21T07:58:53.847-08:00Living with Elephants that vacuumGood Hello<br />
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I live in a bottom floor apartment, I have for over 6 years now. I understand that not everyone has ever lived below someone else and that they don't get how loud they walk. Over the years the people above us have come and gone, for the most part all have been great about being quiet up there and did not thud around. Mind you I know I have complained about the upstairs neighbors before like when we first moved in and for a couple of years after the people that lived up there were horrid, not so much on the walking loudly but they complained about us and we are quiet and well she was just a mean lady, the landlord didn't even like her. But they moved out and everyone else that had moved in and out over the years since them have been great neighbors. Heck one set we didn't even know were up there unless they accidentally dropped something. Then came the sisters, our neighbors right now, one of them has a daughter and one of them not sure which one got custody of one of their nieces from another sister, so we have 2 kids under the age of I'm going to guess 7 living above us. It sometimes sounds like a heard of elephants has moved in above us.<br />
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Now don't get me wrong, I love kids and I know they are going to be loud especially at that age range. I never hear them screaming and hollering unless our windows are open and they just got in trouble, and are being punished but I do hear them loud and clear when they decide to run or throw a hissy fit and thud on the floor. so granted kids will be kids and they don't bother me all too much. What weirdly gets to me more noise wise is the constant vacuuming that the sisters do, EVERYDAY! At least once a day if not more often the vacuum comes out upstairs. So now not only do I have to deal with the heard of elephants from about 6am to when ever their bedtime is, so anywhere between 8-9pm. I have to hear the vacuum every stinking day. It makes me long for the lady who hated us to be living there again.<br />
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So I just deal with the vacuuming cause I understand that kids are messy, and that the sisters could in fact be neat freaks since they vacuum so much. But last month they crossed a line with the vacuuming by doing it at like 6:45 in the morning. Now this was before I decided to start getting up at 6am and making Richard his coffee. I'm dead asleep and get woken up by one of them running the vacuum right above my head. Mind you I sleep with a fan to help drown out noise and I could hear their vacuum. So I got up got dressed told Richard I would be right back (he was on vacation) went upstairs and knocked on their door. When one of them answered the other one had left for work already, I explained that I live downstairs and am a light sleeper, plus there are noise restrictions, that you can't make any loud noises including vacuuming until 9am and not after 10pm. I also explained that I was being nice and coming up there to talk to her about it, and to please not vacuum so early again. She did apologize and hasn't done it since. Thankfully.<br />
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You are probably asking well why don't you complain about the noise to your landlord? Well I could, but really she can't do anything about the noise either, Cause yes she could call them up and say hey can you guys not be so loud but then again, they can be loud from 9am to 10pm sooo really can't do anything about that. Plus why bother her about the noise cause it just paints us in a bad light because we are bothering her over something she really can't control to much. Now I have no problems complaining if they start vacuuming during quiet ours and I have done it in the past with the lady that hated us. I choose to pick my battles wisely when it comes to apartment living cause I don't want our landlord to hate us, and she doesn't cause we are so low maintenance and quiet and get no complaints about us (anymore). Side note, she never took the complaints from the one lady seriously after the second one in one week cause we had rented from her before and never got complained about the first time we were living here, so our record is good. Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-76251116115774465362014-07-16T09:24:00.001-08:002014-07-16T09:24:31.717-08:00All over the place Good Hello Readers,<br />
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Since my last post, I have turned another year older, July 11th I celebrated turning 31 by going out to lunch with a great friend of mine that I have known for almost 10 years then went to Color Me Mine to paint and sat with a friend I made through there and cheered her up because she was kinda having a crap day. The next day it was time for the family Birthday dinner, since mom works evenings now we have to the dinners on the weekends. So Hubby, mom and my Mother-in-law and I went out to dinner at Piccolino's Restaurant, they serve Greek and Italian food. My mother-in-law surprised me with a gift of paint brushes and a holder for them. I can't wait to get to Color Me Mine so I can use them!<br />
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Richard and I are making an effort to not sit in front of the TV every night, we either play board games, put a puzzle together or read. We now only watch TV a few nights a week, which is a lot better then every day. One of these weekends I want to challenge us to go the entire weekend with out turning on the computer or TV and see if we can do it. We also wont use our cell phones to get online, they will still be on in case someone needs to get hold of us but that's all that they would be used for. I think it's a good idea to disconnect from electronic devices every once in a while. We are so dependent on devices for entertainment now days it's sad. I don't even turn on the TV anymore for background noise and have been known now to just sit around the apartment in silence. It really is rather nice. Everyone should try it, even if it's just for a moment or two.<br />
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July 27th will mark 6 months of no soda, or desserts. I have almost gone half a years with out it. I don't really miss the soda, but every now and then I crave a cookie or a piece of candy. The first month was the hardest for me with the no desserts. and there was a moment in April where I almost accidentally ate some cake because I was starving, it had no frosting on it but before I even got close to taking a bite I realized I couldn't eat it because it was in fact cake. I blame Richard for this because he gave it to me, he claims he was going to stop me before I actually took a bite. I don't know that I believe him on this though lol.<br />
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I have gotten a nice little routine going in the mornings now, I get up by 6:30 and make Richard his coffee for the day with our Keurig, mine as well, then I make myself breakfast and make sure his lunch is ready to go. I really do enjoy getting up and making him his coffee, it's a nice little thing I do for him and he enjoys it as well. .<br />
<br />Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-69917392369629782682014-06-18T18:01:00.000-08:002014-06-18T18:01:04.253-08:00Things Have Been GoodDad's Celebration of life went really well, we had a great turn out and it didn't rain. It was nice to see all the people that knew dad come together and have a party. Which is exactly what he wanted, well ok he wanted a booze party but well yeah no booze was had. <br />
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Hubby and I have been married for 10 years now, our anniversary was 2 days before dad's celebration of life. We had a big family dinner the day after our anniversary as hubby had to work the day of our anniversary. Then just the two of us went up to Fairbanks last weekend to celebrate as well. We had a great time. Hard to believe it's been 10 years, some days it feels like just yesterday other days it feels like it has been a lot longer. All I know is we have had some rough times through these last 10 years and made it through and for that we are stronger.<br />
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The last two days I have been helping mom move stuff back into her living room after the remodel. I hurt all over and was very thankful to get today off so I could not do a dang thing and relax. She had some class to go to today. I will hang with her tomorrow as she is leaving to go to grandma's celebration of life which is this weekend. She will be gone for 2 weeks and gets home right after her birthday. So tomorrow will be a shopping day and making sure she packs what she needs.<br />
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Other then that not much is going on, all the out of state family is gone, it was nice visiting with them all though. I miss them all, I am a very social person with not a lot of ways to socialize. But I'm used to that and I do like my alone time as well.<br />
<br />Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-67703549123271983422014-05-19T14:00:00.001-08:002014-05-19T14:00:43.095-08:00No denying I'm his kidI am my fathers daughter. There is no denying it, not that I would, I mean I know I look like him, and according to my mom I have his sense of humor, and his love of sausage (both mom and my brother like bacon better). But every once in a while something else comes out of nowhere and smacks me in the face and goes hey this is just like dad too. Today was one of those days, I was just waiting for my Keurig to make me a cup of coffee and BAM right in the face, dad loved coffee, he drank it every morning, now mind you he had his black and I have creamer in mine but still there it is. For the longest time I didn't like coffee, I loved the smell of it but didn't like the taste of it. Then starting late last year I started drinking it every now and again while painting and it wasn't so bad, now it's a daily thing, almost like I can't function with out it, which I can and do go a day or so with out any. But still it is yet just another thing I have in common with my dad. Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-61846614827008843162014-05-15T13:33:00.000-08:002014-05-15T13:33:05.489-08:00Old Man Kitty, and other fun stuffI have always it seems since being married have had a knack for cleaning up my apartment before knowing I needed to. Mostly it was just when Richards dad unexpectedly would come over for some reason or another. Usually it was just to use the bathroom before heading back out to Wasilla. But it never failed I would clean up the apartment and then the phone would ring and it would be dad wanting to come over. Other then that I always managed to clean it up and make it look good before we get a note on the door saying that the landlord was going to be coming in for the smoke detector test and fire extinguisher. Well it happened again, I just finished cleaning up the apartment yesterday and when I got back from getting wet food for Kramer there was a note on the door saying that the landlord would be by for the check and to see if there was any maintenance needs for the apartment. The whole reason I cleaned was we have family coming up beginning of next month and on Sunday we are having some friends over for dinner and game night.<br />
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My poor Kramer kitty is starting to show his age. We have noticed for a bit now that he isn't making the jumps he used to make. I'm talking like easy jumps like from the floor to my lap when I'm sitting on the couch jumps. He is looking for steps to get to places, like to get into the dinning room window he gets onto the computer tower which sits on the floor, then onto the printer then walks onto the window ledge. It's not an all the time thing though so I'm thinking he is arthritic. I got him some hip and joint pills today and he will be started on them tonight when he gets his wet food I am hoping that they help him move better. I have had Kramer since February of 2002 so I have had him for 12 years now and he was 1 or 2 when I got him so he is 13-14 years old now. If the pills don't seem to help then I will take him into the vet and see what they have to say. I also know it's going to take a bit for the pills to kick in so I know not to expect to see a difference for a week or two.<br />
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The weather has been amazing here, so sunny and warm during the day, the only bad thing is because of all this nice weather my poor allergies are going nuts. We have hardly had any rain so far this spring. I think we are in for another scorcher of a summer and with lack of rain more of a risk for wild fires. We already have warning about burning.<br />
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<br />Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-80325600679106429962014-03-23T17:55:00.001-08:002014-03-23T17:55:23.288-08:00Yet Another Blow from DeathIt saddens me to sit here and write that yet again someone that I love has been taken from me. This time it was a very dear friend of mine that was one of my many mothers as a grew up. Lynn lived across the street from us from I want to say my 7th grade year till about a year or two after I was married and moved out. I would go over to her house everyday after school and would hang out there till my mom came home from work. I was able to go to her and complain when I thought my mom was being unfair and she would help me see that maybe just maybe mom was doing what was best for me.<br />
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In the second half of my senior year Lynn suffered a stroke that left her paralyzed on the left side of her body. Getting that phone call destroyed me, I didn't want to believe it happened and stayed in my room for quite a few hours. I only ever visited her twice while she was in the hospital one of those times was prom night with Richard. She came home shortly after that but it took me a while before I could spend more then 5-10 minutes with her at a time. It just brought up painful memories of my dad being sick and I had to concur those memories and then I was able to spend a lot more time with her.<br />
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If any one is keeping tally that's 3 deaths in 5 months, we are done now right? Hopefully for a long time.<br />
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R.I.P Lynn you will be missed. Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-5262949467971762962014-03-18T15:21:00.003-08:002014-03-18T15:21:36.642-08:00Death Strikes AgainEarlier today I got a call from my mom to inform me that my Grandma Rock passed away this morning, this one wasn't unexpected as she had been sick with pneumonia. It just sucks cause I no longer have any blood related grandparents left. She was the one grandparent I was the closest to, Grandpa Rock died when I was about a year old, and Grandma and Grandpa Evans died when I was in Kindergarten and 1st grade. She was the one I got to grow up knowing and will be missed.<br />
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I remember the summer after my dad died I was able to fly down to Spokane and visit with my grandma by myself, I did this for a few years and had a blast going down. We didn't do a whole heck of a lot mostly just stayed on the farm, but aunts and uncles would pick me up and I could spend time with cousins and have fun. I managed to make it down to the farm quite often after that with mom, god it was fun although a lot of the time I got annoyed cause I was a teenager and wanted to go do stuff and not have to wait for grandma but I wouldn't trade those vacations for anything.<br />
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I remember this one trip that I went down by myself, grandma woke me up and the first thing I see is this little old lady holding a mouse trap with a dead mouse in it. Let me just say that was not one of my favorite ways to wake up but it definitely sticks out as one of the grosses/weirdest ways. She was so proud that the mouse trap had worked.<br />
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The last time I saw grandma was shortly after Richard and I married, my cousin had married her husband and a few months had gone by and it was time for their "wedding reception" for the family, We were able to fly down for that weekend. that was I believe about 9 years ago. It sucks that we live all the way up here away from the majority of the family.<br />
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The last 6 months has not been the best for my family, starting in October with Richards car accident, then dad passing away in November, Then Richard slipping and falling and going to the ER to make sure he didn't scramble his brain,earlier this month (he's fine just a bit sore) to now the passing of Grandma Rock. I hope things now get on to a better track and the rest of the year is smooth sailing. <br />
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R.I.P Grandma Rock at least your stubbornness will live on through mom and IStephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-91569736047312413962014-02-25T11:43:00.002-09:002014-02-25T11:43:59.278-09:00Lunch is highly overrated It has not been my week for making a successful lunch so far and it's only Tuesday! Yesterday I was making fish sticks and heard the timer go off the first time letting me know it was time to flip them over but somehow missed the second time it went off. I have clue how I missed the second timer going off, I didn't have music playing, wasn't on the phone or anything but I didn't hear it sound off. Yes I did actually start it too, cause when I remembered about them it was flashing that it had ended. Then today I wanted a grilled cheese sandwich cause it just sounded good, get all the stuff out for it have the pan warming up on the oven pull the bread out only to find it moldy, so no grilled cheese for me today. I have other bread that I just pulled out of the freezer so I can try again tomorrow for the grilled cheese.<br />
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I can only assume that I have angered the kitchen/food gods so I need to find out a way to please them so I can have a successful lunch time. Or I will just give up lunch cause it is highly overrated, well that's what I'm going to tell myself if I can't cook lunch tomorrow. Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-3988187653948334122014-02-12T11:39:00.002-09:002014-02-12T11:39:50.892-09:00Want to rearrange/declutter the apartment yet againBeen thinking about this small apartment of mine, which is small but not small all at the same time. I love my apartment just as much as I hate the thing. It's very hard to decorate it/ arrange furniture in it. There is only 3 ways that we have found to arrange our small living room. Our kitchen is a one butt kitchen and lacks storage and counter space, plus doesn't have a pantry so we have to have a set of cupboards as food storage and the pantry is the coat closet. We have 2 bedrooms, the actual master bedroom which is our spare room/catch all/media room and our bedroom. The thing that I hate the most about this place is the 1 stinking bathroom! It's small, there is only 1 so if we both have to use it, it's a matter of who can get to it first, which by the way is hardly ever me. The location is nice, close to mom which makes it easy when I need her to take me places, the landlord is awesome and very friends, I have great neighbors and this is the longest we have stayed in one place.<br />
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I think I know why I have been thinking about my place a lot lately, and getting that rearranging bug, I want to say it's cause I'm antsy cause the days are noticeably longer now and I'm wanting to do more stuff. But since I'm home all day with no real way of getting around I turn that energy into moving stuff around the apartment and getting rid of stuff and so forth which bugs Richard cause he hates when I want to rearrange the living room. SO I'm trying not to go there this time and just leave it be.<br />
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Who knows maybe later today I will go through some of my stuff and get rid of the stuff I haven't used in a long while. Maybe that will get rid of the rearranging bug for a bit.Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-37546098572857739292014-02-06T15:51:00.002-09:002014-02-06T15:51:49.182-09:00Shoe hurting paintingHere I sit with new shoes on my feet thinking, ugh I hate breaking in new shoes, it's such a pain. This is the first pair of new shoes I have had in about 3 years, yes you read that correctly my last pair lasted me 3 years. I loved those shoes, but they have fallen apart way to much to be worn in the winter now, lets just say I have been suffering from wet sock syndrome for the last few months and it sucks so glad to have the new shoes even if they do kill my feet till I get used to them. I just hope I can adjust easily cause I'm going from having rocker bottom shoes back to normal ones.<br />
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I need to get back into updating this thing more often, even though I know not a lot of people read this, it's more for me anyways. I have always found writing a journal to be a big stress relief even if it's just random stuff that goes through my head and I edit what I put on here cause there is just some stuff that the entire world does not need access to. So that's a goal for this year, to update this more frequently. We shall see how well I do.<br />
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I have converted my sister-in-law into yet another monster. First time I did it I converted her into an Alaska Aces fan, this time it's Color-Me-Mine. She is going to try and come into Anchorage once a week to paint with her boyfriend. Now to just get mom to go in and look at the stuff they have, I'm not giving up on that one it will happen!<br />
<br />Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2434467410763825154.post-50839434783269674292014-01-29T09:05:00.001-09:002014-01-29T09:05:16.680-09:00Oops I Did It Again......I have challenged myself once again, this challenge is no soda or desserts for 1 whole year. I started this on Monday so this is the beginning of day 3. I was inspired by a 10 year old boy in one of the many vlogs on Youtube that I watch who gave up sugar for a year. I'm not going that dramatic cause well sugar is in everything! But I figured if I gave up desserts that I'm giving up a lot of sugar. What do I classify as desserts? Here is my answer, candy, cake, brownies, suckers, ice cream, cookies, pie, donuts, basically all kinds of sugary junk food. I am allowing myself to have sugary cereal if I want it, gum, and lemonade, the occasional juice though I am not much of a juice drinker. Other then that my drinks of choice are going to be: water, tea, monsters (the one I drink has no calories or sugar) and like I said before lemonade, maybe even crystal light, and sparkling ice (fizzy flavored water with no calories). A really good friend of mine says if I make it the entire year he will pay me $50.00, which was unexpected and cool of him. So January 27 2015 will be the end of my challenge hopefully I can make it, I think I honestly can.<br />
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Richard in his own way is doing the challenge as well, though his is a bit different then mine, he is limiting his sugar intake. Basically right now he is trying out sugar free options of candy. He is I wanna say a bigger sugar junkie then me so if he just limits how much he eats I will say its a success. He is supporting me in my challenge though and says he is proud of me for even just trying to do it and will be proud of me even if I do fail at it (which I wont).<br />
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In all honesty after a year with out soda, I might just give it up for good or just have it on a really rare occasion. We will have to wait and see what happens a year from now. Stephaniehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15096175891824783837noreply@blogger.com0