Friendship

I've been sitting here thinking about all my friends. My friend group is small but I wouldn't change it at all, I have some great people in my life and they all mean something different to me. There are some that I know I can tell them anything at all no matter what it is and they won't judge me for it. I have friends whom I know I can go to with a problem or a fear and they will listen and help me through it. There are even the friends that I can totally just act 12 with and be totally silly. And yes some of these friends fit in each group that I just listed. I don't really have a best friend cause how could I choose just one? They all mean the world to me and are the best friend I need at that time when I am hanging with them. I love them all. It doesn't matter how long I've known them Some I've known for over 20 years others going on 2 years and anywhere in between. Heck some of them I have never met in person.

I'm fiercely loyal and protective of my friends, don't mess with them and if you hurt them so help you god. I also tell them if you need me for any reason no matter what time of the day it is, go ahead and call or text me I will answer and not be mad about it. I will help them to the best of my abilities and if they need me to show up, I show up.

The flip side of this is if you do me wrong for whatever reason best be prepared for me to burn that bridge and not want to repair it. I can hold a grudge, I don't want to but I will don't burn me cause you might not like what happens. Don't force me to choose between you and another friend cause that is a guarantee that you will lose and I will pick the other friend. I'm kinda going through this at the moment and it sucks. I feel like I'm being forced to choose between two people because of one of them and as much as I want to be friends with both I'm taking a step back from the one to see if they can get their act together and be the person I know that they can be, if that doesn't happen well then I will fully walk away from them as much as it hurts me to admit that, I have to do what is best for me and I don't need that negativity/drama in my life.

there is a poem I ran across many years ago that just spoke to me and I will post a picture of it here. it perfectly describes me for the most part.